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The story of Jacob mirrors many, if not all, of our stories. Throughout his life Jacob couldn't own up to the Imposter inside. He hid behind his False Self tricking and deceiving others to push his own personal agenda in life. Jacob was the son of Isaac, the grandson of Abraham, and had a twin brother, Esau. At the birth of these boys, Jacob was grasping at the heel of Esau. In Jacob's life, this "grasping" would manifest itself by turning him into the synonyms for his name: Cheater, Trickster, Schemer, and Manipulator.
Throughout his life, Jacob concealed and lied about his identity, even in order to steal the patriarchal blessing he so cunningly bribed from his older brother Esau.
But God pursued Jacob.
Wrestled him down, actually. God let Jacob exhaust himself first, so that he had nothing left. "Jacob will not release his grip, only now it is a grip not of violence but of need, like the grip of a drowning man. The darkness has faded just enough so that for the first time he can dimly see his opponent's face. And what he sees is something more terrible than the face of death—the face of love" (Frederick Buechner).
After the skirmish with God, Jacob was asked the one question he'd been avoiding: "What is your name?" "Jacob," he answered. "Jacob must be himself before God . . . not even the Jacob he would like to be" (R. Paul Stevens).
Often, the "Jacobian" mask is created to cover the pain and heartache of trauma in our life. To remove the mask, restoration and transformation are needed. This will, most likely, involve wrestling with ourselves and the details of our story, as well as wrestling with God.